Life...

Life.........................

it's.........yet.....but.....and.....although.......


why.......why were we put on this earth to feel pain, to live with whatever life throws at us unexpectedley, nastly and whenever life wants.

if only.........


why.......why isn't there a way out, a way of getting through the torment, the illusions, the PAIN.


Life........Death......Which is better


Life is suffering death is......well noone knows that but.....is there suffering, torment, illusions, pain and anything else Life can throw at us in death, is there.......

the only way i could find out would be.......no.....i won't do that......i can't do that.....i shouldn't do that......maybe......NO....i wont, end of discussion

Although.......that little voice in my head...... "do it, do it, DO IT!"

no......NO!!!!!!!!! I say to myself screaming at the mirror

but....i cant carry on with this torment.....
just so you know i know i'm not the only one i just feel like i am at the moment

although if life carries on this way, the way it has been all my life i might just.... make the population of people feeling like this one less

i take a step closer to where the gun, scissors and knifes are kept......metaphorically speaking and literally speaking....one more thing bad in my life just might lesson the population....by one...

Gun.....Scissors....Knife.....which one will i pick.....