Thursday, 28 May 2009

"ooblarde, ooblardo, life goes on, hey"

There is a song that goes "ooblarde, ooblardo, life goes on, hey" now, thats probably not how you spelt it but it doesn't matter about the spelling. When i read Hugo's blog it clicked, you would do anything you could do make the person('s) you "love"or"really like" happy, and that's a fact.

You would sit there for an hour and listen to her talk, buy her what she wants(within reaon) and lots more of things."(if)" Until you then realise while she is talking to you that the only thing that makes her happy is him, and him is not you and him is another boy.

I have to admit it i liked it while it lasted, the anxious feeling... but it's gone now and that's probably a good thing, not for me, but for her; and knowing that it is hopefully a good thing for her makes me happy.

I know this probably sounds like i'm jealous, and there was a time when i was, but hopefully her and him will be good together. All my hope for them. That's the least i could do for them.

Now, back to the beggining when i said the song "ooblarde, ooblardo, life goes on, hey" I used this because things happen in your life, good and bad; you make mistakes, good and bad; you do things, good and bad. But... you can't change what happens, for the best or the worst you just can't change it, you can't go back in time, and you go forward in time (well, not yet anyway)

Whatever you, me, him, her, or whatever anyone does life goes on and we can't change that, for good or for bad. We have to live with it and sometimes we can't live with it anymore and that is when we take drastic measures; i know, i have been there. But...in time, that may be a short time(luckily for me it was) or it may be a long time, but you will get over it and you will realise that: life has not stoped for you, life carries on even if you stop yours, live your life, don't drag yourself down, look on the bright side, and everyone deserves a chance be them good or bad.

"ooblarde, ooblardo, life goes on, hey" And you only live once, so why shorten your life even more

Monday, 25 May 2009

Life...

Life.........................

it's.........yet.....but.....and.....although.......


why.......why were we put on this earth to feel pain, to live with whatever life throws at us unexpectedley, nastly and whenever life wants.

if only.........


why.......why isn't there a way out, a way of getting through the torment, the illusions, the PAIN.


Life........Death......Which is better


Life is suffering death is......well noone knows that but.....is there suffering, torment, illusions, pain and anything else Life can throw at us in death, is there.......

the only way i could find out would be.......no.....i won't do that......i can't do that.....i shouldn't do that......maybe......NO....i wont, end of discussion

Although.......that little voice in my head...... "do it, do it, DO IT!"

no......NO!!!!!!!!! I say to myself screaming at the mirror

but....i cant carry on with this torment.....
just so you know i know i'm not the only one i just feel like i am at the moment

although if life carries on this way, the way it has been all my life i might just.... make the population of people feeling like this one less

i take a step closer to where the gun, scissors and knifes are kept......metaphorically speaking and literally speaking....one more thing bad in my life just might lesson the population....by one...

Gun.....Scissors....Knife.....which one will i pick.....